Please, Not Often

 

I need to surrender to you and this vengeful, bizarre encounter. Abandoning all hope to resist humiliation, although I think I know it is worth it. I doubt myself anyway, not to worry. This will not be taken well. As a point of principle to himself- no victimization- deleted oppression. He needs to forget what he is thinking. Only one chance to over-do it, why not take that chance you are lucky to have been given. Hunger to see the green light.

I see this happening day after day, such a terrible scene, now it is we. What I am witnessing, he is becoming. Not fit for human consumption, this is the personification of small-minded chimps- too many of them lying around. Your time is surely coming. What he tried to present himself as, is the answer to your problems, you are evil company. You know exactly what to say- the surface truth is very rarely the actual truth. The enigma of personality. Think and pay attention, deal with it. What is going to happen next? Not knowing is the exciting part, the genuine sympathy is tilting toward you.

Craving to hear your words, alone. Real serious about friendship, the subtle invitations. Open up. Do not arrive on the collective social blacklist- then you’re in for a hard time. He is inclined to agree that he doesn’t act on his part. Don’t take me seriously, that never works, never seems to work, better yet, learn when to take me seriously. Not often.

On the margins of society, not a difficult way to be, maybe it means something…. Maybe not. Nobody seems to understand at the time- we are winning! In effect, he is ok. He has a high affection for you. Fuck the popular mind; seek to appreciate your own approval. Do not say goodbye, have your own definition of fun and be comfortable with it.

You ask how I feel and why I feel that way, take a look at my story. A moron could figure this one out. We have been here before; you have come as what you deserve to be. Your ability to make him think and act differently is intoxicating, In which he  enjoys greatly.

Routine and happiness, something ruthlessly missed- he longs for it.

Send lawyers, guns and money.