Friday, 6 September 2013

It's Been a While Now

Crunch time at Fort Knox. How the river do run red. The decision to turn the right way is soon becoming unfathomable, unobservable forces have been introduced, very prematurely. Such explanation can be furnished by admittance and understanding, both of which don’t come easy. As we have found out prior to the event. Being a main precursor that is. No faith, no time, no words, nobody. Man alone.
How biological evolution can contain such complexity has bewildered many in the past. The purpose is perplexing to understand. At this time in life, nothing is clear. Nothing is certain. Guidance from a higher power will not be ignored. Free yourself- for the sake of everybody. Persons are being effected. Wrongly.
Theoretically in control, yet it hasn’t felt that way for an eternity, explaining that doesn’t seem to be an option.  Set things right then get out. Leave for the good of others and yourself, yet not the priority. Testify to the haunting authority before collapsing into fits of delirium. Unexpected clarity shines through the addled confusion, almost humanizing what was bleary-eyed obnoxiousness.
It has been recognized that charity does not overcome selfishness, nor does it get noticed in the first.


The game is effectively over

Saturday, 29 June 2013

“Clymenus”

“Clymenus”

Springing eagerly into a frenzied and inadequate state, witnessing only the shrieking sound of time disappearing. Grappling and jabbering at the thought of being forever alone in a complete nonsensical headspace, only to greet the dark gloom of the fast approaching tide. Out of control- living on borrowed time, no intentions of reimbursing.
Dwarf your constant slander, conjuring mortality of the soul. The hour of little faith has arrived amongst us. Gnawed by the animals you are, good luck to your urgency- you doomed individual. Speak of such divination, yet only time will tell.
Understated romance relinquishes, voluntarily cease to be kept, leaving the forgotten awe- wonder but less joyace. Confused accounts of malicious emotional attack, search for yourself- by yourself.
Ignorance and greed stemmed from a lost psyche, the innermost self led to run a-muck. Sunless regions buried deep beneath the earths core is the next port-of-call. Hades shall attend to you there. His third of the cosmos is where you belong. Little in the way of a following. Persephone round ii, back to the land of the living but only to return to the dark creatures realm, eventually. Hands are tied now!
In truth, it is never peaceful- staring blindly at the sun. no blood on the floor, no explanation necessary.

In memory of the Elysium fields, the final resting place of the souls of the heroic and virtuous. The middle of the road is only popular when nothing else is going on. Find ones own path. Mortals relating to the gods- a fearsome figure to those still leading a conscious life as we know it; in no hurry to meet him.

Wednesday, 26 June 2013

Fucking Bovines!

Fucking Bovines!

You made this person, despising your own creation. This chlorinated gene pool is evolving into his own, disagree or agree- no matter, awaiting his re-incarnation. Travelling down this confusing route, only to hope he transpires into hot commercial property. Drifting into limbo through this menacing landslide thriving to live out an unnatural bohemian subculture. Pleading for widespread appeal- the man you love to hate.
Monstrous ego-trip, "Sit down boy! For I am a man" although little evidence, using you. Confronted with extreme distaste, perceived with little to none humanitarian values, manifesting negativity whilst only being unsure about everything. Uneven concepts lifting time without life, representing the divine- or so he thought, give me space! End of the night.
"We do not have to get along", he doesn’t want to get along. Unacknowledged existences, watching another make a life for oneself. Ready to jump.
“Porcine!” You exclaim, not that it matters but it wouldn’t go a miss- you collection of monotonous fools. Live a little. Proportion your ideas into easy to manage segments. Fucked otherwise. Faces come out of the rain, back to your childhood realities. Inner peace can be achieved that way. Love is not flowing, it is a hang up.
Shed hypocrisy, dishonesty, and phoniness early- be enlightened. Throughout the vigor of life, man longs to be potent and known, constant worry is prolonged- awaiting death. Fucking bovines!

Anger and money is you’re only fuel. Drinking the blood of others misfortune. Love for loves sake.

Wednesday, 12 June 2013

This Whirlwind of Tumbling Beguilement

It is as it should be, sunshine- through the window. Wanting to talk to you, however such hard times are amongst many. For better or worse, nobody could care less, unless for their own fortune.  Destruction in motion, falling through time and space. No turning back now. The greater power is deceiving you! Fight to the death beyond imaginable courage.
They advise against antagonizing, but if it is necessary- then so be it. Fall out of this whirlwind of tumbling beguilement. The social paradox. Knowing but not wanting – wanting but not knowing.
The stars are showing a puzzling path ahead. I hope your ready for this, I am sure not. Sipping at a margarita in blissful sun, all is not well. Sit up and take a stand. Juggling with minds – Merlin esque, juggling with thoughts- Lucifer.
A tranquil head would be much appreciated, far past needing this! I cannot settle until my work is done- it will never be finished. Grab yourself by the balls. Gazing into nothing, what you recognize as nothing, although, there is actually much here for you! You blind fuck! If you are aware, why the benevolence?
Pissing into the wind, nobody to blame. Times are not interesting enough if there is no messed up situations. Bloodsucking leeches surround us. Help when it is needed- a nuisance any other time.
Visual terror at every angle- need to get away! Mind numbing pain without experiencing physical hurt. Not an easy thing to get ones head around.
Set the fireworks, prepare the gin- in for the long haul. Can sense not being around much longer if things are going to progress in the same direction as the present. At least do it behind my back, would be easier. Right in front of my face is not cool with me. I would love to have the willpower to figure you out.

Hiding behind the sharp curtain of boondoggle.

Sunday, 2 June 2013

Laughter and Confusion

Laughter and Confusion

This place needs fucking bombing, what is this hellhole, who are we to ruin such a wonderful thing. Most intelligent race? Still yet to see why. Swallow some acid that will make things better. Things are really turning now; this night is warping through time. We need to get out. The wind is daunting, clouds swirling.
We leave the repeating box, which had been occupied with only laughter and confusion for the past 6 hours.
The dawn is sharp, brisk times are to follow, easy to forget that. We walked past a polish woman who was obviously a little bewildered into why 3 creatures of a ketamine binge were walking in circles around the cold streets at that time, wearing highly inappropriate clothing for the climate, looking through emerald tinted sunglasses. We expressed our good gestures to her nonetheless. Three times in fact. She was not best pleased. “Nobody wants to know you at this time of the morning, nobody needs to know you! Crack heads and hobos rule ok during these hours”.
We stood on the waters edge after much hesitation, in fear of being engulfed by the tireless cold liquids, battling the god-forsaken winds. The only thank was the lack of rain. The skies opened suddenly. Time for warmth.
After walking into the nearest sweat-ridden burger joint, housed to a fair few peculiar looking eccentrics, we came across a young lad with similar interests to our own. He just wasn’t handling it well. Desperate for a Coca-Cola, jaw swinging and eyes rolling deep into his green skull. Few words were exchanged with this particular creature of the night. He was having a whale of a time.

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Back to base, not sure what the reception will be like, but no choice really. The smell of the stale night is rife now. More ketamine and many brews were on the cards, not to mention the endless amount of tobacco consumed. A blooter quickly inhaled to take the edge off. The sun is starting to glow brightly filling our headspace with joy and brightness, just what we needed. I knew I had a long trip ahead of me, with confrontation waiting for me at the end. Get your shit together son.  Back home to get ready for the next adventure, bleak streets and wandering heads surround us like never before. I quickly made a detour to pick up more consumables for the voyage fast approaching.
50 minutes out of Manchester, starting to feel the night I was still living. Visuals still mashed. I took a seat on, what seemed like the busiest train I had encountered, everybody staring. I proceeded to revive my broadsheet newspaper in order to look sophisticated to others around me, who had by far already noticed my pupils were indifferent. Although I couldn’t make head or tail of the letters travelling around the page, as long as it looked like I was reading that was enough for me. My face was probably an inch away from the newsprint but at the time I felt I got away with it. I noticed the ticket inspector in the reflection of the glass. My heart sank, I felt sick. The trick is on these trains is to pay on your card, not that mine had any money to pay. “Denied” he expressed. I then proceeded to tell him that there was plenty of money on the card and that it was his machine that was faulty. He then explained that I could sign for it if I had any identification.  Not a chance in hell was I telling him who is was.
I said “I can leave you my details, if it helps” with the full intention of using some unsuspecting persons home address. “ No that’s fine brother”, he exclaimed, “it is when people don’t say they will give you your details that we have a problem”.
Suits me, even in my condition I had managed to swindle somebody out of paying. I couldn’t help but feel proud of myself.
Sat across from me, once that ordeal was over, was an odd looking man. Not sure whether that was because of my impaired vision or the fact that he had mutants growing fast out of his neck. His arm twitching like an itchy ferret. Not experiencing good vibes from this gentleman. Every time I looked up from my scrambled newspaper, I caught his eye. Was he staring at me with his cold eyes the whole time? Forget this being, you don’t need the stress.
By the time I had got over the thought of the creepy reptilian sitting across from me, I was nearly at my destination. I had noticed a youth, similar in age to myself, running frantically with his bike in order to catch this train. A part of me was wishing him luck, not thinking he would be approaching me before I had forgotten about him. He sat beside me in the adjacent quad of dead-skin cell covered seats, brandishing nothing but a bag of what smelt like stale alcohol. I liked this man instantly.
I hear the painful crack of a can beside me, after a quick glance to the right; I recognize the brand instantly- Super Scholl- 9% beer, known locally as ‘tramp juice’. The ticket man quickly arrived again. The ale wielding man, not surprisingly used the same ticket scam as I just did, I couldn’t help but smile, nearly to give the game away when the inspector squinted at me wondering if this was co-incidence or conspiracy. The only issue was my associate pulled it off a lot cooler than I did. That didn’t sit well with me but I put it down to my intoxication.
Presuming I was getting close to my destination, I gathered my belongings and headed for the noisy double doors. Stood there for what seemed like an eternity, very aware of those around me, the doors finally opened. I headed into the busy city streets still sporting a pair of knock off ray-ban’s with Frank Sinatra’s ‘fly me to the moon’ blasting through my headphones, only for it to start raining. The music induced me to thinking I was in a foreign land enjoying blissful heat, my clothing said the same.
I, by this time, received many abnormal stares from the public. I had arrived at my destination, I was home. Wandering into the darkness.